Miller’s mother Janice, 51, of Texas, posted on Facebook on Thursday: ‘R.I.P to my daughter Arlana Miller. As a mother, this is hurting me soo much maybe I should of checked on my daughter’s mental health I feel like everything [is] my fault…’
Janice, who is now running her daughter’s social media pages, has posted several tributes and photos of her daughter, 19, including a family shot of her daughter in her cheer uniform with the rest wearing bright blue Southern University cheer shirts.
In an Instagram post, she wrote: ‘I wish I could wrap my arms around you one more time, baby girl. You didn’t deserve this at all. I’m so sorry.’
She also posted videos of her daughter cheering for the college team, writing that Miller had ‘accomplished everything you chased after’ and how she wished Miller was ‘here to see how many lives [and] people you influenced.’
‘It breaks my heart every second you not here with us. It’s not fair,’ Janice wrote. ‘I’m sorry you felt this was the end for you, baby girl. You lit up the world and opened so many eyes. Please keep watching over me my Guardian Angel, I love you.’
‘A part of me left when you did,’ she wrote.
Alana Miller’s mother Janice, 51, of Texas, (right, with daughter) posted heartbreaking tributes to Miller on her daughter’s social media pages, which she is now running. She wrote: ‘As a mother, this is hurting me soo much maybe I should of checked on my daughter’s mental health I feel like everything [is] my fault…’
Many of the photos and videos she posted show Miller in her Southern University cheer uniform, where she celebrated that her daughter had ‘accomplished everything you chased after’ and how she wished Miller was ‘here to see how many lives [and] people you influenced’
Posting from her daughter’s accounts, she wrote how she wished she ‘could wrap my arms around you one more time’ and that she felt like ‘everything [is] my fault’
Miller died on Wednesday after posting a heartbreaking note on Instagram suggesting that she was planning on taking her own life.
In it, she spoke about death and detailed her history with suicidal thoughts.
‘May this day bring me rest and peace. I have fought this urge since my early teenage years… I gave this life all the fight I had. To everyone who has entered my life I’m so grateful and I can only imagine how this may find you, I have been surrounded by people who may have honestly thought that I was okay, but I havn’t been okay for a while,’ the note read.
It also referenced her struggled over the past year with her school, Covid-19 and tearing her ACL ligament.
Miller posted a lengthy note on her Instagram page before her death, noting that she had ‘written so many suicide notes my life but finally, I’ve reached my end’ on Wednesday
‘I struggled so much through just this year alone. From covid, to tearing my acl, to nearly failing all of my classes. To the people in my life I pray you learn to vocalize your feelings and get help always!!! I failed at that and I’m afraid it’s too late,’ Miller wrote.
‘I have written so many suicide notes my life but finally, I’ve reached my end,’ she said.
‘I hope this teaches everyone to check on your ‘strong’ friends, be present always! I’m contradicting myself but NEVER give up!!! I know that I’m letting a lot people down by what I’m about to do. But…truth is I’ve already let down so many people throughout my life and it just feels unbearable. I’ve lost my connection to God.
‘I’ve been dead inside for too long. To everyone I love, just remember that this is not your fault and I pray you don’t find guilt in my situation. I always dreamed of becoming so many things that I am today, but they just aren’t enough, I’m not enough. I haven’t felt enough for a while.. but I say all this to say, I’m done fighting, My battle is over and I pray everyone finds peace in that.’
The university’s athletic department said she died shortly after making the final posting.
‘Our entire campus community is deeply saddened by the untimely death of Arlana Miller, a freshman who was majoring in agriculture on the Baton Rouge campus,’ Southern University’s President-Chancellor Ray L. Belton said in a statement Thursday.
‘On May 4, 2022, at approximately 9PM, Southern University Athletic Department was notified of a social media post which ultimately led to this unfortunate announcement,’ the statement read.
Miller was a freshmen cheerleader at the Southern University and detailed in her note how she had struggled with COVID-19, and ACL injury, and had almost failed her semester
Although she appeared bright and happy in her photos, she wrote in her note: ‘I struggled so much through just this year alone’
The teen encouraged others to ‘check on “strong” friends’ and not assume others are okay
Her school also acknowledged her death and the athletic department noted how Miller’s death came during Mental Health Awareness Month, ‘a time to raise awareness of mental or behavioral health issues and to help reduce the stigma so many experience’
The athletic department noted how Miller’s death came during Mental Health Awareness Month, ‘a time to raise awareness of mental or behavioral health issues and to help reduce the stigma so many experience.’
‘We ask for your prayers, love and support. Our deepest sympathy to The Miller family, SU Cheer, & friends. We love you Arlana #ForeverJag,’ athletic director Roman Banks and the school’s athletic department said in the statement.
If you or someone you know is experiencing suicidal thoughts or actions, call the National Suicide Hotline at 1-800-273-8255.